It's crazy to think that I have some of the very things I often dreamed about but never really believed I could have. I am sitting here with the worse indigestion ever but completely grateful for this journey into motherhood again. I never thought I would be able to have one kid, let alone two! Yet here I am almost seven years after having my daughter and I am pregnant with my second child. As soon as I write that down I feel this sense of complete and utter joy and belief. My belief in what is to be, has never been stronger than it is now.

I was in my hometown of Columbus, Ohio when I found out I was pregnant. I thought I had some serious jet lag and the flu. I never have jet lag when I go back home but this time I was sleeping in until like 4pm. I had the worse sinus infection and I just couldn't find any energy. When I didn't get my monthly cycle I decided to take a pregnancy test at my husbands cousins house. Thats the same house we had our Cambodian wedding ceremony so I felt super comfortable letting them know the results. I remember I looked at Chea and just smiled and he looked at me and we just laughed.

We tried after our wedding in October and in November but were not successful. I think it's funny that I conceived my child on my sisters birthday who passed away. Some people eat ice cream when they are sad, I like to make love to my husband, it always cheers me up. I really do believe my sister is my personal angel, I wasn't even supposed to be ovulating on that day. It was unplanned in the sense that I thought I would have to try later in the month. However completely intentional because we wanted to have another child. I'm extremely nervous because it's just been the three of us for the past seven years. More so excited at the thought of new energy in our home and Amirah being able to be a big sister.

Amirah has been so excited to know that she will be a big sister, she keeps asking me when we can find out if it's a boy or a girl. She also keeps monitoring my food and telling me what I can and cannot eat. I love to see her protective side come out so early, but she needs to back up off my late night coconut ice cream indulgence.