The other night my daughter had a nightmare and she woke up screaming. She has taken after me and often sleep walks and has bad dreams. I was the same way as a child and would walk into my brothers room and pee in his bed thinking it was the bathroom. Thankfully, Amirah hasn't done that yet lol.
She always yells my name when she wakes up from her nightmares. I come in her room and lay with her until she falls back asleep. It was around 4 AM the other night and as I was rubbing her back while she drifted back to sleep it had me thinking. Thinking about how amazing it is to be someones source of comfort, source of happiness and strength. Thinking about how deep a child's connection is with their parents and how important our role truly is. It made me think of the creator and how I honestly believe that a mother's love is a reflection of God. Now I'm not a religious person at all and I wholeheartedly believe in spirituality and individual relationships with God. I just know that everything we seek in God is essentially what we seek in our parents.
Could it be that we were given the opportunity to show God's love through parenting to really understand the magnitude of our own power and ability to harness real divine love on a human level. I don't take this for granted at all. I realize the power that I have to truly show my daughter and future daughter the power of Love.
So on this Mother's Day I think about how I want to be loved, how I want forgiveness and understanding from the creator. How I want to be understood and accepted simply for who I am. I think about all of that and I apply that same mentality to loving my children. To raising them and allowing them to be exactly who they are supposed to be.
Motherhood is a gift; a divine gift that should never be taken lightly. Beyond the social media pictures and likes, beyond the compliments and the fun days. On the days when your child tells you they are gay, transgender, changing religions, changing careers, dating outside their race, joining the circus or simply getting married before you wished. Remember the love you expect to receive and understand that you have been given an opportunity to express that of which you believe you are deserving yourself.